bunchoflies

So many mixed feelings are passing through me now. Thoughts are rushing so fast that I can't catch them to know what are they really about. I would like to stop for a while to make a step but something is making my stupid head go even more off. I'm going back to be egoistic and to fight for myself and not for the other person. I've been wondering about what to do, what I shouldn't do, how to act. So world is still moving... Know what.? One thing is good about going home. I have people to come back to. Very few people that counts in my life that they are worth going back. Being alone is not worth anything - no matter how good person I would b

So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change, I'm going to change. This is the last of this sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm going to be just like everyone: the job, the family, the fucking big television, the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, good at sport, washing the c